2010 thus far

So I've been good with resolutions, iv been healthy and trying to get fit... I've seen a lot of my mates, been working hard and I booked a holiday with my two best mates to the Canary Islands that I'm very excited about... tan tan tan!

Unfortunately the relationship with my partner is over. It broke off last night and seemed such a shame because we had (well i had) a great past few months. Hopefully I'll get a friendship out of it, I going to try not to dwell.

It's probably for the best. I'm really trying to find someone now who really inspires me. I remember past loves have made my work grow and lately I've been a bit quiet with it.

I miss going to exhibitions and visiting strange new places to inspire me, that has to be another resolution! I'm going to see The Taylor Wessing Photographic Portrait Prize 2009 in a few weeks which I'm pretty excited for. The intention is that it will inspire me with my final major project at college.

Lately I've been crossing over between types of photography I want to do. I really see myself, currently, choosing Photographic Art, but this interferes with a lot of my University plans where I've selected commercial photography. I think these thoughts mainly came from the interview I had at Newport where the interviewee saw my profile and suggested I'd be better suited for their Photographic Art course. I convinced him otherwise but now I'm a little confused.

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New Years

I wish everyone a Happy New Year

I've given myself 37 resolutions because I want this year to be incredible

Most of them are pretty personal but basically there things to improve my health, try new exciting things, and get me closer to succeeding as a professional artist.

Here are some of the less embarrassing ones ;) :
Get another tattoo
Go abroad
Swim with dolphins
Get my PassPlus
Take up kickboxing
Have good attendance at college
Write
Read more
Take my camera everywhere
Help a charity
Win a photography contest
Get into university
Start selling prints
Get my Nation Diploma in Photography
Have a photograph published (magazine, book, etc)


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Christmas Wish

Take me back to this exact moment



I would change every decision from that point onwards

I will not let any similar thoughts alter my decisions this year

I won't let moments like this slip away again

Christmas presents

David Tinkler's sister sent him this... :)



I think if it wasn't for David Tinkler my photography self esteem would be rubbish!

7

something real, something raw, something not quite right!

alternative:

Snow Day

So Ongar is all empty with Joely still away at Exeter! I've survived 1/3 of the time I have to survive, I might actually make it!

So my mum came with me to take photos :)



Before of this



and i also took this



one day il bother to change may clothes during the cloning process


.......




all i did today was think



please hurry up! <3

Rain Before The Storm

This was beautiful live!

YAY

present from David for the shoot I did with Jessie and Faith (his neices)

such an amazing gift XD

town

I made a stop motion of me walking through town for college... i hate it but have a deadline...

Christmas Card

So college asked us to take a christmas design for a christmas card for charity... heres mine... i used Aaron Nace's smoke stock...



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Danni's Shoot

So today I did a shoot for Danni. She wanted a photograph of herself to give to her boyfriend for christmas. We did a few different ideas... Here's one example and a set of funny photos from the day :)

More real edits to come though...






Edit:


Had a good day :)

You Are The Reason

One mistake too many and i've made plenty,
It's time now to start again, make a fresh start.
You are the reason I'm willing to change,
You are the one lighting my days,
So please help me change my ways.

I want to be the person i was before,
With you by my side.
I want to share the feelings that are filling my heart up,
Before they burst inside.

Another day and I'm falling deeper,
Losing track of all I've done.
You are the reason I have learnt,
You are the one i would never hurt,
You've got my heart on red alert.
I wish i could be with you today.

By Leanne Bowden

Today

Tonight I’m wearing my best smile in hope to make me worth your while! I’ll be the best mistake you’ll ever make!

Portfolio

I get in from Exeter yesterday and discover I have three uni interviews within the next two weeks; leicester and newport ... my two top choices...(and gloucester, but i hav to cancel because it clashes with newport) ... its good but im so unprepared... so I spent the whole of today editing old photos, as i dnt have time to take and edit new ones..

so this is all the pics i did today... some may need to be removed, obviously the duplicates cos im not sure which are best yet










^all three on one page^




Wish Me Luck :D

Humiliation

So I went to work today my normal 5-7:30 shift on a Thursday evening and a see a guy I used to go to school with. We chat about life, what we're getting up to at the moment and stuff, etc. I can honestly say I have never been quite so embarrassed. There I was standing in my apron and hat and hairnet, and he was smartly dressed shopping for dinner. He explained to me what he was up to, and pure shame washed over me. He works in London and is being successful. We started off at the same point, if anything, due to personal reasons, I really should be the one "in the lead" in life. I am so ashamed I wasted a year of my life, although I know it had to be this way due to the stupid college system. I am so annoyed that I am a year behind, I should be moved out, moved on! I am so determined to be a student and am delaying my opportunities! I know now that I really need to step it up! Get good! Get noticed!

London

I've decided the most interesting place to be in London is on the Underground. It's a small space where strangers are forced to pause their lives to get to there next stage. They kill time in different ways and, most of the time, have no idea who the people around them are. London is such a multi-cultural city with tourists and immigrants well blended with England born citizens.

I find it fascinating the amount of people surrounding me when I am on the tube! All the stories they could have to tell! It is almost a shame that once that train pulls in everyone goes their own way!

These thoughts were provoked when I was sitting on a quite quiet train. All of the seats were taken, but on the underground that doesn't mean it is busy. There was a problem with the line and we were all advised to move over to the opposite platform. After everyone was sitting we were informed that the train we had moved to would in fact not be moving at all. We all wondered back to our original train and sat there for a few minutes. Then we were told that the other train would be leaving immediately and that if we wanted to get it we would need to hurry. I'm not much of a story teller but basically everyone cracked up. Perfect strangers were laughing at their own string-puppet antics. It reminded me of how in a crisis people come together. It was nice to see this kind of community for a positive reason.

this truely is...

the happiest I've been in weeks! I've been so overwhelmed with worries coming in all directions and I've worked really hard to get through them!

My university stuff is completed, now I'm just waiting for an interview, the only thing that needs to be sorted is my portfolio, but of corse that involves having shoots to produce images to be put in, so how could i call that work :D

My college work is still stupidly behind but I'm not too fussed, I figured this term is pretty much a lost cause. I'm kinder hoping something will click nearer the deadline and I'll just start working hard to get a pass!

And on a personal level, I'm getting my independence back and the bad thoughts are falling away as the days go on. I'm looking forward and my passion for photography grows more and more each day! I'm making plans! Big plans!

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Shoot and update!

I shot two of my friend's neices today! It was a lot of fun! More progression and experience for what I want to do and hopefully I will have created something good enough for my portfolio!







On another note, I finished my UCAS application yesterday. Meaning I'm completely applied to University! I hope interviews start coming in soon! I need something to look towards that isn't over six months away!

Birthday in two weeks! I feel very materialistic right now! 19 is old!

Home in Autumn

I took a tone more photos for my project today! The sun was just right!



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Photo Reconstruction

So today I went about mending some of my Grandad's photographs from when he was in the Paras! Hopefully he'll enjoy recieving these framed for Christmas :)


I don't feel this was a great save but I managed to reduce some of the noise and sharpen it a little!



Basically removed the creases!